Wednesday, November 23, 2011

You call that productive?

Yesterday was the most/least productive day ever.  Let me explain.

I have finals coming up and I need to be studying (since i literally learned nothing in two of my classes this semester) BUT i also have this little exam coming up in July--AKA the Bar--and of course they make the certification application due DURING finals.  Genius idea i know!  So yesterday was all about finishing that application--which I DID!!!  I also went and got my finger prints done for the application, picked up my MVR from my house AND had an eye exam--which just turned out great.  Apparently not only did my prescription change for my reading glasses, but i need ANOTHER pair for distance.  AWESOME.  It's amazing that I had perfect vision before law school.

Anyway, in all this mess i got NO studying done, couldn't work out, and had to force myself to eat carbs--which is hilarious to me because normally I am a carb junkie!  In deciding to do this bikini competition I made and committed to a choice to eat a certain way.  Since I have the half marathon TOMORROW--that the bf and i completely didn't train right for--i know i need to carb load for it.  I know this seems like fun and normally is considering i love carbs BUT after having made this choice it is hard eat a way that i KNOW is counter to my goal.  OH WELL--i guess it's just this once :-) oh yeah--and thanksgiving day!

So this morning i got up and made breakfast for me and the bf and we switched it up a bit to add more carbs to our breakfast.  Scrambled egg beaters with veggies and salsa along with PROTEIN FRENCH TOAST!  YUMMY!!!  I made the bf the same thing but i cooked his with a mix of regular eggs and egg beaters.  We usually eat really well for breakfast and it is most def my favorite meal of the day.



Any breakfast favorites that you have?

Monday, November 21, 2011

and i'm already forgetting

So i'm sitting on the couch waiting on the bf to get home from work so we can go to the gym (yes i know i should be studying but i'm taking a break) and i realized i have yet to post anything about my workouts or what i'm eating to start my journey to the bikini competition.  Well you all know about last night so let's just start this whole workout/diet thing with today.

For breakfast around 830 I had an egg beater omelet with spinach, pico de gallo, and garlic with a bowl of irish steel cut oats (1/4 cup dry) sprinkled with sea salt. T

Then i went to starbucks and had a cup of awake tea.

Around 12 I went home and had a snack--2 low sodium rice cakes with a tbsp of natural peanut butter (skippy natural--my fave)

At 230 i had lunch--a large salad with baby spinach, strawberries, blueberries, half an apple, hand full of almonds (cinnamon roasted) with a light poppy seed dressing.

Basically all i did today was sit on my butt, study and eat.

Around 4 i had a carb conscious yogurt --kroger brand-- vanilla chai flavor.  Not really a fan of the flavor but this kind of yogurt is delicious.

Now i'm sitting on the couch waiting on the bf and drinking an Oh Yeah cookie and cream protein shake mixed with water.  We're going to do back and core tonight so I need the protein.  I'll update the workout tomorrow.  I'm cooking dinner when we get home--steamed fish with spinach and sweet potatoes!! yummy!

realizations

Last night the bf and i went to his parent's house for pre-thanksgiving dinner.  We weren't entirely sure why they decided to have this dinner considering thanksgiving is on Thursday but I do have a theory.  I think they wanted to have a more low key kind of thanksgiving before the whole big shabang on Thursday at the Ritz with all the relatives.  Makes sense to me.

So after having my cheat drink yesterday I hadn't planned on cheating again on my diet.  Well, throw that idea out the window!  Obviously I couldn't pack my own dinner in a tupperware and heat it up and watch everyone else partake in the yummy turkey, dressing and potatoes!  how rude would that have been?  but oh how i wish i had!  NOW that's not to say that bf's mom and dad aren't great cooks--they absolutely are and take pride in everything they make--but what they didn't know when they prepared this meal is that I am lactose intolerant--like completely unable to eat full-fat dairy and most low fat options as well.  Basically i can handle fat free yogurt, some fat free cheeses, and that's. about. it.

I absolutely do not fault them at all for the horrible stomach cramps I experienced all night long after that meal--i mean how were they supposed to know?--but damn did I learn a lesson!  I HAVE to be more outspoken about what I can and cannot (and should not because of my diet) eat!  LESSON LEARNED!

It sucks too because the food was really yummy :-(


ANYWAYS--on to today!  I'm currently sitting in starbucks avoiding studying (what else is new?).  What is it about a busy and noisy coffee shop that plays music all day that is so much more conducive to studying than the quiet apartment with no one home right down the road?  I don't get it but somehow it works.  Oh well, I guess I better get back to it.  Don't worry, i'm sure i'll need a study break soon :-)

Sunday, November 20, 2011

first and foremost--i'm giving up

Now I don't want you to think i'm giving up on blogging already, or that I'm giving up on anything really important.  I've never been a quitter.  BUT I've decided that I'm giving up unhealthy eating (except the few and far between cheat days that I'll allow myself to have) because I've figured out what is going to make me happy.  I want a PERFECT body.  Now i hope this doesn't come off as completely vain or ridiculous--because of course we all have our differing opinions on what constitutes a perfect anything--but let me explain.  

I've been a fitness fanatic since about my sophomore/junior year of high school.  I've competed in endurance activities since the end of college until now--my third year of law school--all with the goal of bettering myself, becoming healthy, and becoming happy.  But from what I've learned from all of my fitness endeavors and accomplishments is that I have a hard time committing to a lifestyle of strict eating for the purpose of getting my body to a point that I personally am proud of.  

Sure you're probably shaking your head right now thinking I sound like a brat for even hinting that I need to lose weight or get into "shape", but for me, I am not where I want to be.  SO i have decided, against all temptation--and if know u me, u KNOW food is my weakness--that I am going to commit to something, COMPLETELY out of my comfort zone.  I am going to compete in a fitness bikini competition!

Now that the giggles and the "oh my gods" are done, let me be real for a second--to me a perfect body is a toned and healthy looking body--with a flat tummy and MUSCLES--NO NO NO, not bodybuilding muscles--but toned, lean muscle with a still feminine look.  

Ever look through a shape magazine?  or women's health?  fitness?  I'm sure you've seen some of the models in those magazines.  Well THAT is the goal.  Toned, feminine, but still strong and lean.  

Personally I know this is going to be a tough road for me--i have a sweet tooth like you wouldn't believe and I come from an Italian family--but since I have decided to commit to this--to commit to making ME happy--I know I can achieve it.  

I can't completely start my diet yet for cutting fat -- yes i have it and yes i hate it -- since i have a half marathon coming up on thanksgiving morning (as well as 2 thanksgiving dinners) I have begun eating the way I should be for the competition with a few cheats here and there.  I will make sure to carb load before the race and to enjoy thanksgiving--DUH, I'm only human--BUT after that, it is protein, protein, protein for me!  oh yeah, and working out of course!

That being said, today is marking the day of my very last Starbucks treat.  I'm usually not a starbucks fan but around the holidays they have a few drinks that i just LOVE.  The one in particular that I decided to end on is the caramel brulee latte--my kryptonite.  As i sit here in the starbucks around the corner and sip my calorie-ful latte, I'm not even sad about this being the last one.  I am giving this up to make myself happy, and i couldn't be more excited.  I hope you all enjoy my journey to this bikini competition.  I haven't yet picked one to compete in but I am thinking about some time in June.  I plan to update you all on my fitness achievements, eating and nutrition, and my life in general.  I hope to gain your support in this fitness endeavor and, who knows, maybe even inspire someone out there to do something that will truly make them happy. 

OK--back to making notecards--finals are coming :-(